I don't like that you have to be drunk to tell me what I want to hear. That can't be healthy. I can't live like that.
So maybe it is me that is giving up. But I wouldn't call it that, I'm just done. I can only wait for so long. And I'm not okay with just being used or played with while you have others lined up.
I won't be that. That won't be me. I'm much to strong on my own to give in to that lifestyle.
I refuse to have someone control me and the way I live my life. I won't. I can't.
That's not the way it's meant to be.
I'm suppose to be happy and strong.
Not confused and weak. Which I feel as though I have been. For far too long.
This is not the way I plan on living my 19th year. Not at all.
So I'm not sure what this means.. Where do I go from here? Ignore you completely? Just remove you from my life?
I'm not sure if I'm that strong.. I would feel too much like a piece of shit.
So do I just make up excuses? Not give in so easily to your 'charm'.
Say no o coming over?
Sure would save me some gas money.
It's just unfortunate since my dad and brother like you.
We shall see how it goes. If you don't change things before I've completely lost interest.. I would hurry if I were you.
