5:33pm

Last night I went to House of Horrors with Cru, Jake, and Courtney.
Went as I had planned. Shitty.
Jake and Courtney are still in that honeymoon stage and it makes me happy for her but sad at the same time. Kind of jealous.
Me and Cru are nothing and last night he just made that clear with his body language.
I was so fucking sad the entire night.

Then Courtney just text me saying how her and Jake just had sex. In Cru's house. While he was at work I guess.
I haven't even had sex with Cru at his house.
It's fucking bullshit. I want Cru to find out and get mad. Or something.. I'm just so frustrated and jealous and a shitty person. I'm just upset about so much and I'm not even sure what to do.

I feel like I could totally cry at any given moment.
FUCK.

Happy fucking Halloween to me..