I get to play Emma Roberts. (Seeing as how they are dating.)
Not much to note for the past few days. I spent the night with Sam at the apartment for the first time. We saw the new Superman right after a long crazy busy day at work. And I hadn't really eaten anything but 2 cupcakes and some juice at Charisse's Mary Kay Launch Party. So I was feeling pretty nauseous. Which then means I was most likely being pretty rude to Sam. We just cuddled in bed for a bit and ate some crackers and hummus, while watching Lars and the Real Girl. Which he ended up falling asleep to. We had sex.. for like 4 minutes..
He is just really sensitive and we have just come to the conclusion that we need to wear condoms. It's really just a good thing in disguise. Regardless of feeling- it's safe.
I'm working a lot and it's just sort of adding up I think.. Because for the past few days I've been feeling really weak and nauseous, etc.
No.. not pregnant signs. Just signs of needing a vacation.
The wedding with Winter is coming up this Saturday. Slightly terrified.
I'll practically be doing it all on my own. But according to her, the bride has very low expectations.
Which is comforting.
I would just feel more at ease if I had a second photographer there.
We will just see how things go. I haven't asked about money, but I sure as hell hope I get something for this. I need to save to get out of here.
Nicole is moving with Christian to SLO. Going to a community college there.
I can't deny I'm partially jealous that she is getting out of this town, but the other half of me is so glad I'm not her. In my most honest opinion- Christian and her should not be together. You brake up once.. I just get nervous after that.
If she feels she is doing what is right though.. then more power to her.
Cru and are have been talking. Just about little things. Mostly work or life goals or plans, art, etc. Which is really nice.
There will always be that physical attraction, but I love Sam. And I'm not going to mess that up.
(Not that I had any intentions.) But you know. It's just nice to talk to an old friend about common interests again.
End note: The weather was lovely today. Nice and cloudy with a slight drizzle and some wind.
I cannot begin to explain how excited I am to wear pants tomorrow..
& with that, I must try to sleep. I clearly need my rest for yet another morning shift. (Can't complain too much..)
