I am happy as can be, but I'm a sick person.
Today is 1 month for Emmit and I. And I'm so happy. We FaceTime'd around 11 and stayed on till about 1. Just so we could say good morning and "happy 1 month" which was fantastic since I could see his face. It was better than just a phone call.
He makes me smile so much.
I am so happy to be with him, and I posted a photo of us on Tumblr with a few sentences just expressing how much I love him, and I had full intensions of Hana seeing.
It's not that I dislike her. I really don't she is a sweet girl and everything. But I know she loves him. And I'm not sure why that terrifies me. I'm just so scared of losing him. But I don't think it will happen. She lives in another state.
I'm still a sick person for intentionally trying to make her upset. I feel so nautious and just fucking sick.
I need to promise myself that I won't post anything like that with the intention of hurting her or anyone else for that matter. But solely to document how my relationship is doing.
My stomache is starting to calm down after just writing that.
I need to sleep. I'll post more later today I hope.
