Well. My last post was pretty sad. But I'm beyond that. Very much past all that bullshit. To an extent..
I still will look back at my relationship with Sam and I just get sick to my stomach. Do I regret him being my first? No. But by the end if our relationship I was just so unattracted to him it's disgusting. Sexually I wanted nothing to do with him.
Granted that day was horrid- I had my breakdown. Some to dad. And have been SO okay ever since.
Even more than okay.
I hung out with Emmit just about everyday after the breakup. I needed someone to make me laugh. I needed some happy in my life after 2~3 months of misery. And I got just that.
Emmit gave me that.
I had known him since high school and then having him work with me was and still is very nice.
When getting close to Emmit I was not looking to jump into another relationship. I merely just needed someone to make me laugh, smile, and change my attitude.
Because I'm sure if you asked any of my coworkers- I'd needed one.
It took about a week if not a day or so after, for him to confess his likeness for me. And I couldn't deny I had grown quite the same feelings for him right back. That day we kissed.
In the park in town across from Quinn's house. Laying in the cold grass and leaves. And it was perfect.
Feelings only grew stronger and by October 11th he wanted to put a label on it. And so we did.
Just a few moments later, he told me he loved me. And I was thrilled.
I felt as though I had known Emmit forever. And loved him just as long. We constantly told each other how much we liked each other and what we liked exactly. But every time I told him I liked him, it was me telling him I loved him.
It was so hard to not tell him I loved him.
And he said he felt the same way. We are practically the same person. I can talk to him about anything and actually have a conversation with him. We have similar passions and hobbies. It just wouldn't make sense to fight it.
I dont even think about how we work together. We are both professional and everyone loves us together. Even my dad likes him. And that's huge.
My phone is going to die soon. And I'm writing this while I'm in science so I should go- but I needed to write down how much happier I am. School is catching up with me a tad but I feel as though I'm succeeding in life quite a bit. And it feels so nice.
There will be more to
come.
come.
