This is the first post I've made on my computer since I don't even know when..
The past few days have been pretty nice. I had one day all to myself (which was different/a little challenging) but good. Went to Nevada City by myself. Went into stores I hadn't in a while or ever before. Just to take up my time and because I could. Trying to regain my independence is a tad harder than I had thought. I hate saying that but it's something I did to myself. Not entirely bad, just what it is.
The next day I hung out with Salima for a bit and we always have nice conversations. Always get pretty deep and whatnot. It's nice to hear other peoples views on what is happening in your life.
That almost made no sense..
My fingers are cold and a little shaky from my lack of nutrient intake today. (Thank you again body for the lack of 'the feeling of hunger') but the alert of knowing when it's too late. (Cue shaky hands.)
Anyways, I worked the long shift and just kicked butt. Finished my chores by 3pm and we all got out by 6:15pm. It was a goal since the majority of us had homework that needed to be tended to. So I drove to Nevada City (where I am now) and who do I find at a nice open table other than the guy who showed me this place, Cru Dorsey. We chatted a bit but ultimately I had a goal: finish my homework. And that I did. But I've been enjoying this late night so I've stayed.
Em and I are maybe a little off balance tonight- for lack of a better word. And that sucks. I apologized for being crazy but I think he still kinda needs a break from communication for the night. Understandable. So I sit and I type. And I like it. I miss using my computer and just using my fingers. All of them- the feeling of utilizing all my flanges and not just 2. I need to make an effort to use my hands more often in general. And run. I want to run on trails and cancel things out. I want to paint and draw. Read. Etc..
I feel like I say these sort of things in every post now and I'm not sure what I've actually held my promise to. Half and half I suppose. I do little bits of each. But not routinely. So I suppose I need to develop habits. Stick to exercising nightly. Stop finding reasons to just crawl in bed or put it off. I've been getting compliments on my appearance and it's nice to see that others notice. Not that I can very much, but I also see myself on a daily basis.. but still. You know what I mean. It was actually one of the first things Cru had said when we sat down was how I'd lost weight in my face and I look good. I had to admit it wasn't all me, I had to give some credit to almond milk. But yeah so anyways, enough about my looks.
I suppose thats all I have to say. It's only been a few days. I have a math test tomorrow. So there's that. I feel pretty good about it. I'll keep you posted. On that and everything else, as usual.