Well.. I had my wish granted without actually putting it in writing. Yesterday I worked a long shift 10:30-6:30 and I'm feeling pretty tough for making it through. By the time the closers got there and I went on my lunch with Em, I was feeling pretty down. But we took a walk and got some fresh air which was nice. But by the time 4:45~ rolled around and all our customers had cleared out I was feeling pretty shitty. And all the girls kept telling me how warm it was outside, yet I had a consistent set of goosebumps all over my body. I was freezing and at that moment I knew I had a fever. I was slow and cold but I made it through the shift and headed home. Blake was watching TV when I got there and I immediately went and got the thermometer and low and behold- I had a 100.5 temperature.
Blake is always really nice to me when I'm sick which is very appreciated. He made a fire, got me a blanket, and even looked for headphones for me. And when he couldn't find any, he even let me borrow his nice ones I got him for christmas a few years ago.
Then dad fixed me up some ice-cream all while I watched The Hunchback of Notre Dame. Which was so incredible. When you think about the animation and color and all it took to create that film.. good grief. It may just have been because I as sick, but I love old disney movies when creativity and animation was still in progress. When an artist could create a 3D image out of line and hand movements and such. Before we had computers and it could all be digitized and done with the touch of a few buttons. Hand painted shots and such are some of the best. Again, it may just be my sick brain talking but I don't think so.
Oh! One important thing I have yet to mention.... *drumroll please*
SOPHIE GOT THE JOB!
I can't wait for her to start. I have such a good feeling about her being part of the Carolines team. Sam quit as well as Karen.. Which I am bummed about. More KP than Sam. But either way, I lose 2 an gain one great person. I get to work with my best friend! (Both of my best friends if I'm allowed to count Emmit).. (;
It almost hasn't hit me that she will be there and I get to train her and stuff! Today she is meeting at 1pm to go over paperwork and get her all set up. Then I'm sure she will start soon after.
But I must admit, that I'm halfway a little bummed for lack of a better word. I'm coming up on 3 years at a coffee shop- which is a very long time. And I'm not sure how much longer I should stay. I hate to think about that sort of thing right as Sophie gets hired. But then again I don't think this will be a longterm job for her. She was accepted to Sac State so she will be commuting 2 days a week there (in the Fall) but that semester will show her if she wants to commute or end up just moving. I'm not too worried about it. Since that won't be for quite a while.
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Emmit has been researching schools and such in Oregon. Which is really exciting for him but also makes me nervous. I want to move to the Portland area more than anywhere else. And I think he does to. I'm not sure how to word what I'm trying to express. Bleh.
I guess I'm nervous that he will find a school and leave and I won't have enough money to move too, and I really don't want to have him leave and me stay here. If he goes I want to go too. I guess in a nutshell I'm scared of losing him? I have grown very attached to this person and I don't want to lose him in any way. Certainly don't want to turn this into a long distance relationship. (Because we all know the stats on those)..
So I need to make an appointment with m councilor and see what I've accomplished. What I need to do. And what I can do at different schools, in Portland.
I need to know if I should be looking for Photography based schools, or just another JC, or a 4 year type of thing?? I have no idea what I'm doing at this point. And I really need help. So today while I'm taking a mental/physical health day I'm going to go to school to make an appointment with my counselor. Then I'm going to maybe buy a new bowl for Winston since he has become much too much an escape artist.. then maybe a plant or something. Do some minimal things out in town while I can. I need to clean my room a little bit too. I would love to go through all the boxes of things in the garage and decide what I'm selling in a yard sale at the new house. But I don't know if I see that happening today.
We shall see. I better shower or something though.
Since I'm feeling pretty okay.
