1:25am

I'm glad I told you how I felt about stuff that may or may not have been bothering me for a long while. I'm glad you hear me and understand. I'm not out of line here.

Even if my birthday is coming up in 5.. (Now 4 days) away.. I'm not doing anything wrong/putting anything at risk by telling you so.

Not that I would be if my birthday wasnt coming up.

Point is- I'm glad I can speak my mind and you listen. 

9:03pm

Look! I actually did really fun things on my days off!

I went to San Francisco with Emmit on Friday (Hayward actually) and he bought a car!! Not just any car, a blue RAV4. What are the odds.. I'm so happy for him it's unreal. It's going to be really strange him having a car again.

Anyways, he had to work later that day so we left quite early in the morning. And he headed back home around noon. I then met up with Nat and Kelly. We then stayed at her grandmas house. We gallavanted the beautiful streets on SF and had a nice easy-going time.

I'm still thinking about all the beautiful homes in the city. One day I would love to live in a place as structurely beautiful as San Francisco. But I guess that would really just be Portland. (:

All in all it was fantastic. Nice to get away with some wonderful people. 

10:05pm

Today was such a good day! Work was great. Beau and Kelly are practically my favourite people on the planet and our shift was filled with big laughs.

Then I presented my speech to class and it went really really well! I'm happy with my outcome and I surprisingly got fairly emotional.

Plans changed and Em and I didnt go to SF after class. It would have been too late by the time we got there. So planning on leaving early in the morn and getting there before he has to work at 2:30. Spending the morning/afternoon with my favourite boy in one of my favourite cities doesn't sound half bad.

Then meeting up with Nat and Kelly and we will gallavant the streets of SF and take photos and have a wonderful time. That night we shall stay with her grandma and come back Saturday evening since I work Sunday morning. 

Sounds like a great 2 days off to me, no?

Tonight since we didn't go to SF- Brian, Emmit, and myself all had a beer at Three Forks and then pizza at Pete's. There we then played Heads Up- and the room was filled with more big laughs. I sure love those boys.

Since Emmit and I have such an early morning planned we then headed back to the car and on our way home. 

I washed my face, did my excercises (and added a few more reps to some things to test myself) and then hopped in bed. Which then takes us to present time and where we are now.

I better head to bed soon, just waiting for a goodnight text from Em letting me know he got his phone charger from Kyle and is home safe. 

8:59pm

Things are good. So good.

I can't begin to describe how much I love kissing Emmit. It's as easy as breathing.

School is going really well. I got a B on my math test and I'm understanding the material we are learning. Which is stuff that I remember not understanding last time I was in this math class. So it's really really inspiring to see this growth in myself. Giving myself a big pat on the back. And not only am I growing in math but also in the way I'm thinking. Thinking about stuff I did before in a way I normally wouldn't. It's scary to say out loud exactly what I mean.. But it may make sense without words. My curiousity is expanding and I may be ready to take that to the next level. I'm going to be 22 years old soon damnit. It's time I start thinking differently. Look more loosely at a broader picture and not over analyze a certain scenario in the moment. I can do this. It's not as huge a deal as I've made it out to be all this time. Most things I feel that way towards never are.

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Driving to SF tomorrow to buy Em a RAV4 believe it or not! Really excited for him. Then Kelly wants me to go back to SF with her that weekend with Nat. And I'm really excited to do that. It's a lot of going and going but I need some variety in my schedule. Get out of this little town every now and then. Besides I'm young and can handle a few late nights.

Umm. I think there was something else I was going to say.. But I'm currently blanking.

I suppose I'm just doing really well at the moment and I'm glad to have that to write down.